So... this year's been hard.
But good things are coming.

Back in Jan-August I struggled. I'm bipolar and schizophrenic with BPD, cPTSD and paranoia. Its... alot to handle without proper medication.
My medicine (that I had been on since 2018) stopped working. I had to get on TWO new medications PLUS two more new medications just to manage what was happening to me.
Well these medications since last year I had developed a very serious and debilitating side effects from my pills. I had to get on ANOTHER new medication to tackle it and get it to stop.

Basically my eyes seizure now and its permanent (this made me cry to realize this) and I need anti-parkinsons drugs to stop it from happening.
What happens? Oh... well, my eyes basically shoot up to the ceiling and I look like a turkey in the rain for 2-4 hours every night. It. Hurts. And I CANNOT stop it.
Then they put me on this new drug. Stops the eye seizures but gives me other horrible side effects... so I have to cut the fucking thing in half. :[

Other than night terrors, hallucinating, terrible delusions, paranoia at every waking moment, and the most severe mood swings you could ever imagine...
I'm finally almost okay. This whole year I... I've really had a hard time. I'm just not available and I'm trying to heal from the damage of switching anti psychotics and mood stabilizers so quickly... plus this new med. I just... I'm so fucking tired. Mentally I'm sick of pulling gymnastics to mask away my symptoms.

I've got two people who love me a lot. I've got multiple friends who are patient and supportive even during all this...
They have been so protective. So encompassing with their love and dedication to me. Its been a fucking wild ass ride guys...
And the light at the end of the tunnel is almost here--i feel it. Just please wait a little longer. I'm not running from anyone or anything. I'm so sorry if it seemed like I was.
Feel free to note me if you need. :]

I plan to refund some of my cheaper commissions but I don't know if I'll be able to truly. Money is incredibly tight and I've only made it through this year financially with just three friends of mine. You guys know who you are. <3

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