as a fellow adhd guy, i can relate

the ADHD thought process is like going through an itemized list of everything on your mind in that particular moment, (and how that thing logically connects to every other thing on your mind). Its like a train of thought that's 100 miles long and has nine other trains just as long running parallel to it at any given time.

it's like a megazord of trains that is easy to derail if not careful

sums it up pretty much. also there is a table edit of the song on youtube.... lol.

there was that hugo one streamer that plays San Andreas corruptions and there's a mod that just plays TABLE at max volume at random intervals to jumpscare

??? i don't know what i just typed out.

I feel ya, man. As someone on the spectrum, not only was I diagnosed late in life, but sometimes bad thoughts (or bad habits) perseverate through my mind and I can't really fight them. But hang in there, you're not alone!

About to turn 23, and I am yet to be able to get an appointment with a psychiatrist...

I'm really sorry. I haven't been able to see any therapists since, I wanna say 2022? They all kept quitting and stopped hiring lmao

Anxiety has a similar spiral, only it's just the bad thoughts linking to one another like cars on the world's worst bullet train. Y'got my sympathy.

Yeah, those two things are like peanut butter and jelly.

That is just literally my mind. Sometimes I can fight it off on my own, sometimes I can't. And the times when you can't...those are some of the worst.

And then you hear a bird song or a car horn, or notice some other kind of loud noise or shiny object, and your whole train derails and falls into the valley of forgetfulness.

I’m in this picture, and I don’t like it.

walk out of room
forget what you're doing
walk back into room
forget why you walked back in
walk out of room

that's like my sims cheatcode for stacking infinite tasks cos i'm always finding something that needs to be moved or put up or someone leaves dishes on the floor

yep, this feels right

Yep, I feel ur pain, dude. I feel your pain. Dx

Oh, this is an ADHD thing!? I thought this was just normal that everyone does. Well add that to my list of (Symptoms of ADHD)! Man I can't way till April so I can get the ball rolling on getting diagnosed (I've been pushing it off for ages and had to get my dad to help just schedule a regular doctors appointment so they can help point me in the right direction for getting diagnosed.

I've seen a lotta folks over the years do the same thing where they're like "Oh I thought this was normal," cos it's OUR normal for sure. Then again, it's hard to look into someone else's brain.

It took me a hot minute to get through all the doctor referrals but once you do get in, the hardest part's over. Just, y'know, keep an open mind about it cos not all therapy is gonna be the exact same. Good luck

I remember seeing the Jaiden Animations video of her talking about ADHD and that's what opened my mind making me realize that I most likely have ADHD because I experience everything she would in that video. Then she was talking about how amazing Adderall was basically clearing up your head and making you actually be able to focus and I was there like "Wait, I could take this pill to give myself a clarity to focus on things! This sounds too good to be true!" I've only ever had 2 moments of complete clarity that I can recall roughly in the span of a year and it felt AMAZING! So if it's anything like what I felt in those two moments that would be heavenly.

So my goal is to get diagnosed and if I do have ADHD to try and see if I can get prescribed Adderall to help out with ADHD. If it turns out that I don't then oh well, I'll live on with peace of mind knowing if I do or don't.

Love the expressions on this one, amazing

38. Got meds that work with my type of adhd. Far more put together than I have been in several years. Actually doing things with my life now that I can focus on them. Being fulfilled.
It ain't too late.

Hey that's good. I was prescribed adderall during an alleged "nationwide shortage" the other year, then my doctor quit--then the next doctor quit and took me off my SSRI's, aaaand now there are no mental health clinics near me lol!

I will say experimenting, I found that live resin sativa THC kiiiinda does help in smaller doses--it sorta "muffles" that weird echo chamber shit and I can work without spiderweb brain, but it's not slow enough to where I just get nothing done.

Still, apples to oranges there with those two solutions lol!!!

Hey, if ya gotta DIY, that's what ya gotta do. Probably shoulda mentioned that it took YEARS to get me to this point. Either way, I know it sucks, and it'll be hard and stupid and should things go to shit with SSRIs in this fucking country you might have to look in less-"legitimate" spots. Main point is that it's only a "never" thing if you fully give up on it.

also there are better parts of the country for mental health specialists if you needed another reason to bail on your family just putting it out there haha