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I don't normally post non furry things... and have been hesitant to post a photo of my Old man, mainly because someone on FA has photo of him they took at a furry event in Ohio. But here it goes
on Nov 10th 2018, Bear lost the fight with Cancer. It was a very rapid case and in a location that surgery wasn't an option... He went quickly, while staring into my eyes.. never looking away or closing them.
Bear was my Old Man, my Service Dog, My Best Friend, My Soulmate, my Protector, and my Companion. He helped me to walk again, took care of me when I was sick, and made me laugh. He was a playful Dog and the picture of health .. which is why we were all surprised when he was diagnosed with Cancer... I fell into a deep depression.. I never expected I'd outlive him, and I wanted to join him. Don't be mistaken it wasn't like I felt unloved.. or something like that that.. I simply wanted to be where he went... It's called survivors Guilt.
The empty platitudes and "kindness" from people only made it worst.
*Remember people. Think about what you say. Just because you want your words to make someone feel better, doesn't mean they will*
I am lucky though. While the rest of the world tried to dismiss Bear as 'Furbaby' or 'Pet' My pup/spouse/wife :icon hawthorn: understood Bear.. and our relationship and was even able to put it into words better than I could. It was him that called Bear my soulmate... and said that no one had the right to say "I know exactly how you feel" it was also him that told me "It's ok to want to die. You want to be with him. You're allowed to feel that way" ... and then hid all the sharp things lol.
Without Bear.. I didn't know how to live... We had depended on each other for so long.
it still Hurts. I still call out for him sometimes in my sleep, or break down crying at random times when a memory or song catches me off guard.. but I'm ready to take the next steps forward With Bear in my heart.
I didn't write this for any sympathy.. I simply felt a desire to share.. and to Honor Bears memory today.
Thank you for reading the thoughts of this old Papa Wolf.
on Nov 10th 2018, Bear lost the fight with Cancer. It was a very rapid case and in a location that surgery wasn't an option... He went quickly, while staring into my eyes.. never looking away or closing them.
Bear was my Old Man, my Service Dog, My Best Friend, My Soulmate, my Protector, and my Companion. He helped me to walk again, took care of me when I was sick, and made me laugh. He was a playful Dog and the picture of health .. which is why we were all surprised when he was diagnosed with Cancer... I fell into a deep depression.. I never expected I'd outlive him, and I wanted to join him. Don't be mistaken it wasn't like I felt unloved.. or something like that that.. I simply wanted to be where he went... It's called survivors Guilt.
The empty platitudes and "kindness" from people only made it worst.
*Remember people. Think about what you say. Just because you want your words to make someone feel better, doesn't mean they will*
I am lucky though. While the rest of the world tried to dismiss Bear as 'Furbaby' or 'Pet' My pup/spouse/wife :icon hawthorn: understood Bear.. and our relationship and was even able to put it into words better than I could. It was him that called Bear my soulmate... and said that no one had the right to say "I know exactly how you feel" it was also him that told me "It's ok to want to die. You want to be with him. You're allowed to feel that way" ... and then hid all the sharp things lol.
Without Bear.. I didn't know how to live... We had depended on each other for so long.
it still Hurts. I still call out for him sometimes in my sleep, or break down crying at random times when a memory or song catches me off guard.. but I'm ready to take the next steps forward With Bear in my heart.
I didn't write this for any sympathy.. I simply felt a desire to share.. and to Honor Bears memory today.
Thank you for reading the thoughts of this old Papa Wolf.
Category Photography / Animal related (non-anthro)
Species Dog (Other)
Gender Male
Size 1080 x 873px
File Size 109.1 kB
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