This is a pretty importatnt poem to me. It represents a few months of nightmares ive been having and dreams i wish i could stay in forever. The person for which this was made in honor for will hopefully know it. I put some reffrences that that person should get. please comment.
Note: I did not have time to profread this so excuse my errors.

Only In My Dreams Could We Ever Be Together


With ever dream and night, I awake with a painful heart
And ever beam of light begins to fall apart
Nightmares I seem to fight, compose a piece of art
Echoes, I scream of blight, Return from where they start

The love I feel for you, infects my daily life
Above the zeal and truth, reflects this withered knife
I seek the real and new, erects the stone of strife

I know that some don’t see, the meaning that I say
So in simple decree, Pain that will always stay
My dreams refuse to free our past from where I lay
Your face seems to haunt me, even though we Role Play

We used to text and talk, through nights we used to share
When sun began to stalk, we showed so little care
To me, your love, a lock, without a key to spare
I see your heart’s a rock, in mine, a bleeding tear
As death begins to mock, appears this rotting mare
My future’s a flightless hawk, too the sky I’ll always stare

In red I write my pain, to show the blood I’d give
In hell I will remain, I know you can’t forgive
Your trust I can’t regain, without your hand I’ll live

I don’t just write words that rhyme, there is always lore
I attempt words, sublime, the heavens I can’t soar
I know not every line is solid like the floor
But pain throughout our time, has strained my fragile core

I chuckle to our past, our escape from the law
Innocence went so fast, at our skin we would claw
The RPs wouldn’t last, nor pleasures that we saw
I put your balls in a cast, we’d still hold each other’s maw
A year and a half has passed, now our love has gone

I see you’ve changed so much, and nothing is the same
I still yearn for your touch, I can’t forget your name
I am lost in times clutch, Becoming friends with shame

I cannot see and end, it seems as though I’m blind
I need you as a friend, please don’t leave me behind
These cracks I cannot mend, Your smile I can’t find
Our connection starts to bend, but you’re always on my mind

Now that I close my eyes, begins the healing of our ties
As black engulfs the skies, my dreams begin to rise
Both our hearts grow in size, erasing all my lies
We share both our lows and highs, comfort the one that cries

From this world I won’t return, for hours ‘till light
This flame I Need to burn, far beyond the night
Your love, for which, I yearn, decimating my blight
To love you, I need to learn, for our future to stay in sight

I’m filled with feelings, Great. With you I want to lay
I will never leave this state, for your love ill always pray
You accept me as your mate, but with the light of day
It seems I am too late, this hope will fade away
Despite this world I hate, my heart you’ll always stay
No matter what our fate, Memories ill always play

From my side you sever, released your last tether
Although we said, “Forever.” We drift apart, a feather
And although we said, “Never.” The lies from me can’t measure
No matter how close this seems, separated by the nether
Only In My Dreams, Could We Ever Be Together