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Hi guys, VG here ...

Honestly, if you ever block me, give me a heads-up so that I know why you did. I was talking to somebody recently and we were having a fun time chatting, but for some reason I checked today, and I got blocked on Discord and on here by them. It's an anomaly, I have no recollection of offending you or saying anything to offend you at all, and all of the sudden, this unwarranted thing is festering in my head and leaving my head spinning. I'm a bit hurt; I'm hurt that I got no warning. Honestly, did I do something for this to happen, because it'd be beggars' belief for you to go out and block me on a whim. I dunno, this is confusing me. Honestly, I can't recall. We were having fun talking about WWE and wrestling and gosh, I guess it's back to the drawing board, and back to square one with relationships starting all over again. This is really getting to me. I don't know, you and I were fine. I have an almost clean record, a nearly spotless record on Discord and here on FA. there was one time, one where I actually got a warning to shape up and delete the "memes" that I was making.

That was the one time that I got in "trouble" for that. Or maybe you blocked me because you have some unspoken rule about talking to "smaller" content creators like me? Well, that's funny, popufurs don't like me for some reason. I'm not like Emiliz that goofs around on here, I'm not like Jade the Fur, I'm not like Brother Boofer, the guy "speedrunning" the fandom. Stop me if you know that one, because lately, it's been Jade and Boofer that are getting hate very much like a certain Kero the wolf. I'm not starting any drama, this is a public announcement that if you plan on blocking me, notify me so that I know why, so I'm not scrambling to try to find out what I did and then I start going postal inside my head because I think I did something. Just let me know, it's not a hard ask, it's a quid pro quo. You let me know what I can do better and what I did, and I'll return an understanding as to why and move on and try to do better. At the end of the day, I suggest that. I'm not forcing you too, it's a suggestion, because look at me. I have bad anxiety and ADHD, and when I suddenly get blocked by somebody I suddenly was talking to, I start having a mental crisis and and start worrying that I'm a bad person or that the fandom hates me.

I think that my goal is to try again with life, I joined because everybody was like me. Well, not everybody. We're not sheep, we're not all the same. We all vary from person to person. I grasp the fact that not everybody in the world will like VG Virtuegen. That is a concrete fact. I have got hate before in the past. I've shared the tasteless messages that I have been bombarded with or attacked with. It sucks. I get that not everybody will like me or enjoy what I do, but when a close person that I had begun to foster a relationship with suddenly blocks me on the fly, I don't get it, that's fuzzy math. That doesn't add up in my head, and I'm not calling anybody out here. I'm not about to get suspended like Joey did or get banned forever like that Greg guy. (IYKYK) I respect the law. I don't come across as a bootlicker or angry person that is a punk, I try to be civil and fair to everybody, because that is who I am. I follow the rules here (mostly) to a T, and I am not stupid enough to lose what I have got here. It's high risk and virtually no reward.

I'm not going to contribute to the flow of current drama present in the furry fandom. There's a high influx of "bewares" circulating on Instagram, and luckily, I have not been the subject of any.

I want to keep it that way, because I have no more places to turn to, there's no more shelters that I can turn to if the fandom here drives me out, because there's plenty of people that hate me. I think this was the one place that I thought I could be safe. Well, dogs don't bark at parked cars, do they? I'm not going to lead with my chin and dig myself into a hole, because I have some common sense in me. I'm not great at recognizing common sense, but I have a base level of sense as an adult. And this is odd, right? "VG, once again meddling in the squalor of the commoners on here, this is why you are less recognized." Well, yeah, it's uncharacteristic of me to do this sort of thing, and I can call that you'll give me some backlash. You'll warn me not to post things like this. Well, I think that's not where I'm at. It's funny, because somebody like me is very vigilant and I'm waking up. I already made my choice at the fork of the road to take the red pill or the blue pill and decide my fate, and I know the Matrix is the Matrix. I'll call a spade a spade here, I know this is very petty for me to post something like this, to clutch my pearls and demand reasons. This is actually, believe it or not, an obligation. But it's recommended. It's recommended NOT because I am saying this in a threatening way that comes across as "I want "punishment" but it's recognition of common sense.

Because it's reasonable to clarify when someone is confused right? When you reach that clarification, you also reach closure. And I can forget about it after a while. I'll move on. I'll keep on swimming. And I won't dwell on it too long.

So, I'm adding this to my profile. This is a suggestion, because we don't need more drama in the fandom. All I need is clarification and closure. It saves the hassle of rocking the boat and making drama. It's simple, there's no need for ASBOs being made or fights. It's simple, a one and done. And it's not for the better of myself, I know you might not "owe" me an apology or "owe" me an explanation, this isn't accusatory. This is curiosity and confusion. And I'm not accusing, I'm not pointing fingers or saying "you did this" or "you did that" in a hissy fit. I'm simply asking for clarification, because I want to learn from my mistakes IF I did something wrong. It's the timeout in the corner; it's sitting on the fence at recess during school. It's understanding what I did wrong and WHAT I CAN DO BETTER NEXT TIME. It's me wanting to know what I did, because this is very unspoken and cryptic, and it's not like it was hinted or implied at all. There was not a trace as to why.

I want to learn from my mistakes and be the best furry I can be. Be the best VG Virtuegen I can be. I mess up sometimes. That's why I have you guys. You guys pick me back up and lift me back to my feet and help me change. You guys are everything to me.

So please let me know if I make an error I don't catch right away, because I might miss something.

- VG 💙💛🐾