Hello all my dear friends, it’s been too long.
I suppose you’re wondering why I left, well it’s a long and troubling story. For those of you who don’t know at all I was a Christian before I joined up on this site, and I’ve been through a lot during that time. My dreams were gone, I screwed up so many times, and the world just kept getting uglier and uglier by the hour. All I could do was rant on the internet or just indulge myself in places like this. Well one day I found an epiphany about a career that I always wanted but thought was beyond me. One that gave me hope that I could change myself for the better. So, I gave into one last RP with someone who helped me use my best OCs and a new one to max effect give-or-take. I got clean from this stuff and back into the church, studied, read books, and stayed off the internet for as long as possible – all to make it into the life I always wanted and become the person I always wanted to be. Well long story short after God knows how long of change and studying the bastards rejected me, all that hard work down the toilet for nothing. At first, I thought it was because I thought God was punishing me or something because I had to look at this stuff after my old urges came back (in a way to fight it off, like training myself). So, I panicked and deactivated the account. After long talks with my therapist, I felt like it was time for me to come back here. I don’t know what’s left for me anymore so what do I have to lose? I may get some of my artwork back, but the Notes are gone for good. If any of you are still out there let me know, I need a hug or 2.