Well.. as I said.. Today could've gone whole lot better..
Turns out, Joey is no more with us..
He slumbers for all eternity behind our parents beautiful Bamboo forest..


This morning atrated like every other.. He ate well, I gave him his dietary supp;iment and he could get downstairs with the other 2 and us.ME and my husband were doing out own things..
My husband playing Destiny 2, Iwas starting to play Minecraft.
While waiting i made some popcorn because i wanted some, and took some Monster energy drink..

And then, around 9,30. My husband got up and goes to kitchen. trying t opetJoey on his way..
Joey were meowing and growling..

I waslike" oh shit, it's better not be what i think it is"
Turns out,,, it was... The UTI he had almost 2 months ago, had returned...

We took him to the vet straight on that moment, but at there..we got bad news.. His bladder were blocked and the only option would've been another surgery.
For which we didn;t have funds anymore... It wouldn't even had fixed the problem...
More expensive option would've been perineal urethrostomy. Basically making Joey to be Joeyleen...a female... But that surgery costs 3k-4.5k... Out of question since we already had used 2000 on him before... adn couln't get another loan for it anymore either..

We have no funds.. I already had tried to get him better for long time.
I have dialysis every other day and we also would need to save for my possible kidney transplant...

We had to make VERY heavy decision to put him down...
I thought I was already ready for it after the last time we had to take him to vets..

But in the moment, when I said that we might have to put him to rest..
It hit like a hard stone. Can't do much more than just cry at that point..
We couldn't have done anything else. our options were minimized to zero, basically...

We spend some time with him before the first shot were given.
We stayed with Joey when he slowly fall a sleep... stayed as long as the nurses came back with the other dose...
I wanted to leave before they could give Joeys second shot.. But my husband wanted to stay so he wouldn't go alone.
I understand that. I have been in 1 situation before. It's hard to bear... I decoded to stay to be there for my husband..
I knew it was gonna be a heavy words to hear "he is gone"

Around 5 minutes... Joey was gone..
No more pains or suffering.. Just peaceful eternal sleep...

As much as you think you are prepared this to happen, It still hits hard when it's actually happening.
We got him with us, Took him to our parents and had a grave for him behind the Bamboo forest with a help of our brothers.
He is now with Oliver, Shadow, Mimi. Monster, Bobomb and Claymore. (3 dogs, 2 winter dwarf hamsters and Tortoise)

we had some nice flowers for his grave. and we had nice warm blanket we wrapped him. That blanket had cat heads and hearts on it, How fitting. Didn't see it before we open it up to put him on it.

May his eternal slumber be peaceful. You might've been a nuisance from time to time. But we still loved you whole lot.

R.I.P Joey.

Those who don't have skills to win, Cheats...

Just had 10 gaes of Hex-a-ring in Fall Guys and oh boy the amount of cheaters on each round...
Only 1 game without anyone being invisible or floating and cheating.. There were Grabbers that grab quickly and hope to get away with it before they stumble down in the slime with you...

It's kinda sad, but also very frustrating, of how many don't even want to learn play the game to get good...
They just decide to take the easy way out and Cheat..

Skillfull players, i don't mind losing fair and square. But cheaters.. that won't have any skills what so ever, comes ruining your good run and chances to win...

I wish they would do something for the cheaters In that game... It's getting annoying to be played by those hackers.
No matter how good player you are, they will screw you up in the final round for sure.
Maybe on some very lucky situations the hackers are doing a grave mistake and you win... Never happened to me yet tho.

Hackers should get more strickt punishment.. now they just get maybe banned for a month.. they just gonna scoff it off and make a new account... I mean.. more harsher punishment is really needed here. Like, getting their whole PC ID Blocked and their crown ranking and everything taken down to 0....

Cheaters and Hackers can't win anything without their cheats.
Learn to play the game, or don't play at all. Your achievements by cheating is nothing but empty feeling of success.. Cheaters in Fall Guys... You are nothing but a bunch of loosers without any skills to play the game properly.
Without your cheats you are NOTHING...!

Long time that I've been updating anything in here. Main reason is that I've been pretty tired after the treatments in dialysis. And my eyesight haven't been the best eversince my right eye went blind few years ago.

In this situation, when everything just gets more expensive, even breathing soon will be needing money I bet..
Joey.. Our 5yr manx male cat, got himself a nasty bladderstone situation and treatment for him will be 1922usd...

These things happen unexpectedly. So for few days we have been needing to take him to see a Vet. He is in an Emergency pet hospital in Hickory as I type this from my home. He needs to be there for 2 days/
Since my husnabd is onlyone who is working, We could really need some help...

If there would be enough peoples to donate 1 dollar. that would be easy, and we are not asking a lot. Just 1900peoples would be enough with 1 Dollar donation.. Towards real good cause. Picture from joey and the vetbill can be seen in my gallery...

You can donate on my husbands Paypal: 87initialc[at]gmail.com

I could try on my behalf to atleast whip up somekind of bust for 5usd donations...
Possibly bigger than 5... I'll see what my eye allows me to do.

Any help/donations would be much appreciated, thank you.
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The most expensive sprained ankle that I ever seen...
Glad that Vicki is fine and they even said she is very good looking for a 15 yo cat.
Blood test were fine, some slightly elevated values, but nothing to worry about, they said.

It took them almst 5 h to examine her and do everything, like bloodtest and even x-rays to make sure the toe weren't broken because she limps quite bad. Gladly nothing... But Oh boy the bill...

515 $... I have to get some serious YCH Out to patch up the money.
And Hope that someone would want one.

Now i have to keep Joey and Mina locked up until her leg is fine.
Hopefully in separated room they will remember how to behave and they will be friends again.

Maybe Vicki also regains her confidence and beats the hell out of them IF they keep bullying her after they get out.

Now it's Final for Joey to be re-homed.
I Tried for 4 years to make him accept the other cats that we have, Vicki and Mina.. But he did not.
he kept chasing and attacking after them, especially Vicki, And today there were actual damage done, that requires Vetenary care.
While we were at the store, Vicki got attacked/ chased with such a hurry and force that she is limping her left backpaw. Wish I knew if it were Joey or Mina..
Having appointment for her tomorrow. 9.30 am.

So.. now Mina (because she had started to adapt the bad behavior and attacks vicki few times a week) and Joey are upstairs in one bedroom. Litterbox, water, food, toys and scratchingpost, plus the binders are up from the windows. Planning to keep them separated at least for a week so Vicki can heal up.

Gonna be 100usd for the vet. Hopwfully not much more because I wont get money until after few months.

Wouldn't want Joey to go, but I don't want Vicki to suffer from him. Vicki is already 15 and she doesn't need to run for her life when we're not home.

After trying for 4 years, to make Joey social with them 2, he is not gonna. I don't have the strenghts to keep an eye on him 24/7 especially after my dialysis every other day...

I'm done.. He is going, for real this time... Gonna hurt, because even that i don't like his behavior towards Vicki, we still rescued him and cared for him for 4 years.. Only if he could've understand that he better behave...

We tried calming collar, not working.. spray bottle,, not working.. positive distraction and playing with him until he'd be tired... not working...
Separated in bedroom alone.. not working.. put in a cage.. nope... Not even bathroom...
Nothing works... I'm out of ideas and energy with Joey.

I received now both Covid vaccines.
From first one i did not get any side effects, just a lil sore arm from the spot they gave the shot, and when i lifted it.

The second vaccine I received this Wednesday 7th day. No side effects from this one either. The one who gave the shot this time aimed it little too high on my shoulder and almost shot it on my bone..

Lifting the arm is a bit more achy because of it.

And the Vaccine I received both times were called Pfizer... Not even close to "Vita" as i heard the first time. I blame myself being half asleep by the time i asked the vaccine name.

But yeah.. so far Pfizer had been ok. for me at least. It's acting differently for each person individually.

Hopefully everyone stays safe and let me know if you had any side effects and are you vaccinated, or are you about to withstand this without getting it.

Now to play some Fall Guys or Minecraft while waiting my husband to come home from works,

What would you guys want to see from me and possibly even buy...
Sketches on a paper, digital.. Colored etc etc.

My arm hurts a bit from operation I had to go trough tuesday morning for my dialysis acess since it got clodded on friday evening after my dialysis.

Would need some extra cash to pay for my diabetes supplies since each time i get insulin its gonna be 125 for 10 pens...
Had to change it to Lantus instead of having the Levemir, since it didn't go trough the prior authorization i started aprox 2 moths ago.

They better NOT change the insurance coverage for a insulin that I Cannot use,, for example Treciba..or how ever it's written... I'm allergic to something in it. and last time I tried it because the indian doctor wanted me to change it and already replaced my other base insulin with it... it gave me breathing problems, muscle aces, muscle soreness and rapid heartbeat.. and there was something more i do not remember.. was almost 2 years ago.

My second corona vaccine is coming soon, in a few weeks.. It's gonna be the same vaccine i received before, but peoples are saying they got side-effects from the second. So..Gotta have my husband here with me during those after days incase i get something.

And one thing why this year sucks already: Netflix CANCELLED The Dark Crystal: Age if Resistance second season..So sad! So so sad... yes.

My last journal had comments blocked from some weird reason because i didn't do it. And i couldn't even remove the check mark from there to allow it to be commented...
So here's the thing again.

And from some reason this recent journal had blocked the option to comment and it's not letting
me remove it... so.. lets try again

I got vaccinated yesterday for corona. and Surprisingly I haven't had any side-effects from it.
I had slight itch and ache that I wouldn't even consider being one.

To be honest, normal flushot have been hurting me more than this did. usually my arm have been sore for few days. Nothing from the corona vaccine. Can move my arm just fine.

After 21 days there gonna be the vaccine number 2.

Maybe I just got some placebo instead.. xD

I think they started vaccine peoples who are belonging in a risk groups.

Anyone else had theirs yet and did you get side-effects or sick from the vaccine?

Joey is plain stupid or is he secretly the wisest cat...

Few nights ago I was going to sleep, my husband stay downstairs since he werent too tired yet.
Joey were upstairs on the bed already and Vicki came up with me like she always does.
I go to bed. rest my head on the pillows and vicki jumps on the bed getting comfy around my knees. joey sleeps on my feets.

Right when i have managed to snooze off, I hear Vicki growling at something. I wake up and see Joey kicking Vicki. I angrily say his name and he stops and quickly pretends to be sleeping..

I saw that little bugger looking at Vicki while he kicks her butt. And when he notices me, he lays his head on the blankets like he never even did anything.
He Kicked Vicki every time i had almost fallen a sleep just enough to wake up again when i heard Vicki growling. 3 times he did that before my husband came upstairs and Joey jumped off the bed and headed downstairs.

Seems Vicki were too close to him so he had to kick her. Joey kicks everything if he doesn't like it close to him. Once he even kicked back of my head while he were hanging on top of the recliners backrest.

Joey also have the type who holds grudges.. XD
My husband were messing with him little by touching his back paws and he didn't quite like it. after my husband had stopped, around 10 seconds later Joey meows a bit, gets up and goes biting my husbands hand from teasing him.

And one thing Joey does is that he is stomping on the toys.. like stomps with his back paw on the toy few times before starting to play with it.

Also he is a catnip addict. I put cat nip usually on 3 palces for every cat to have their own spot.
Everything goes good for a bit until Joey comes and hogs everyones spot or toy it's infused with. So Vicki and Mina only gets to have fun for as long as Joeys spot is licked clean...

So.. Has anyone elses cat done something like this?

Apologizing already possible typos..

As everyone who have been reading my random journals from time to time, I/I have diabetes and got into dialysis due to bad doctor few years ago.

So, therefore you already know that I need medications taken. Most important one is my Insulin. And I had to get prior authorization done on it because the medical site changes the insulin that's covered by the insurance TWICE a year.. Why the hell they do that? Got process for that started around 2 weeks ago.

I use other medication too, and I usually Call CVS like 30 minutes or an hour before when I 'm gonna pick it up.
Still I have to wait aprox. 20 minutes to get it, even they said that it's ready to be picked up.

The second thing that frustrates me so much that today, I actually were close to cry because the peoples working in CVS are dumb airheards that don't know how to do their job efficiently and properly.

I had visited there few daysbefore because they wanted my insurance information. While I also had some medications to be icked up I gave them my card and they asked me to go on the drop off station with another worker.

She looked at my files and gave me the card telling that they already have it and it's not needed.
OK.. Got my card and medications after waiting for 20 minutes being pissed about the wait. Also I was hungry and tired, Having low bloop ressure after my dialysis at that morning. I sat on a chair with angry pouty face...

Finally got my things and we could go with my husband.
The same evening I received a call from cvs automated machine telling me I had to get my insurance information in because it was missing. I called CVS and told that, but they just said don't worry, it's a call they have for curtesy reasons.

The next day,, I keep receiving the calls and let my husband tell them the information on a card,
They have it, but it's not registered... What?
So they didn't do anything about it this time either because they got confused am I the number 001 or 002 on the card.

Wouldn't I be the number 002 because my husband has me as the dependent?

I have to go back in there. Let them have the card AGAIN because they didn't scan it few days ago when I was first time told to bring the information and I did.. they even had my insurance card for 5 minutes to scan it on that day but noooo..

How can they have my insurance information and the same time NOT have it?

They better not have a second account on my socialsecurity like they had before.

They better not have anyone else under my name like they had before and I receive their medical information on my phone.

They better stop sending me automated refill messages because I don't want to refill unless I need the medication. Becase of those automated messages I have been cancelled tens of the refill reguests because I still have enough medication to last for a month.

They better start getting my medicines ready when I call them ahead that i'm gonna pick it up in 30 minutes.. I don't wanna wait another 20-30 min to get them.

And they better scan my card tomorrow or so help me.. I'm gonna cry right there because they're just so frigging stupid and I don't know what they want from me...

Small note in the end here..
There's Pokemon Cards on Mc Donalds Happy Meals. One pack has 4 cards in it.

So, this pouty, almost frustrated enough to cry about other peoples endless stupidity. Got herself a Happy Meall with additional Daily Double and small fries.

Turns out that the worker had put extra mini fires in the meal, and then gave us one extra Fudge Sundae because she accidentally had made two of them. For free.

And from the pokemon cards I got my favorite.
Bulbasaur, and it's holo sparkly.

Feeling a bit better after that.
Now I wanna get the Pikachu card because it's cute.. And Pikachu happens to be one of my faves too.

Am I the only one that had troubles with the pharmacy? When I had my meds in Wallmart pharmacy, it worked a lot better. No these troubles and waiting were only in a line with others.
Got medication within few minutes usually.

But from some stupid reason, insurance is ot covering Wallmarts anymore so I had to move on the awful CVS...

If you made it all the way in the end.. Thanks for reading.

Hopefully you're having a better day.
Stay safe you all.

I have made an achievement of Surviving the 2020 and leveled up on 36 on Tuesday 12th.

Had to go to dialysis on that morning so i was little tired so no birthday parties..
At least i got some tasty ice cream cake my husband got me.

Today I got Minecraft for Switch.

Stay safe and keep wearing masks and washing your hands/ paws/ fins/ tentacles/ wings and claws.

So, As i told before, I play Pokemon Shield Game.
And they released the new DLC for it like a week ago.

Of course I have been playing it to kill some time,
But there is a big problem.

I cannot seem to find Clauncher in anywhere on my game.
Some pages say that it's only Sword exclusive pokemon. Or Am I just so unlucky that i have been searching for it for almost 4 days around the sea and nothing appears. exept those damn sharpedos that freaked me out when i dirst encountered one. xD
Been trying to find some trade codes for slowpoke with kings rock too.

IF anyone here plays Pokemon Sword or Shield.. And happens to have Clauncher. IF its breedable, could you breed one and trade with me.
Slowpoke with kings rock would be cool too.

Willing to trade one of my shiny G-Max Meowth FOR A Clauncher that i could keep.

You guys stay safe as the second wave of covid might be on

I learned that if you wanna evolve a pokemon who has 3 evolutions.. Dont uxe candies to evolve it onlvl 100 at once. It skips the last evolution base....

I hatched shiny jangmo-o and trained it on lvl 22... then i got inpatoent to wait it's evolution and i gave it diabetes with Large Experience candies.

It evolved into Hakamo-o.. but the last evolution..I did not get.

So.. learned from my mistake and now i'm hatching eggs again. Gonna put the first in Surprise trade after i get a new one.

The eggs take 4-5 minutes to hatch with bike... So i have few relaxing hours waiting for me.

While waiting the first DLC to launch end of this month, I might see how many shinies i can hatch. And If i get doubles, i will Surprise trade them away. Or if someone would be interested here, let me know about it.

Stay safe, stay home and keep washing your hands and wearing a mask in public.

My nose lost its virginity for a q-tip last wednesday night.... I got the covid test done because i woke up at 3:30am.. felt freaky and told my husband that we have to go to the ER.. I had breathing problems from some unknown reason. It weren't fluid overload, because i wasn't more than 79kg at the time. I gain fluids between my dialysis treatments and sometimes it goes over 81kg and i do not have any problems like that. I do not drink much, so it's more from how much i eat. I have healthy apetite. xD

Anyways, from some reason i had fluid building in my lungs and it made me cough more and having raspy, shallow and fast breathing. So to the ER we go in middle of the night.

They put the extra air whiskers on my nose and took the test with freaky long q-tip that they shove in your nose as far as they can go, then when it wont go further, they starts spinning it in there for good 10 seconds. It hurts and tickles at the same time... it's nasty business..

Lost nose virginity and got Lobotomy done at the same time. *thumbs up*
It was negative so so far i'm free from Covid-19.

I think it might be the air ventilation in this house we're in now, That we need to move out too because the owner is selling it and the new owner is gonna charge us way too much if we stay and rent from him. Almost 4 times the amount we're paying now.

This houseis old, windows kinda drafty, and the floors have open vents that you can see the basement. The basement is not having concrete floor, just dirt and dust. so...
It's pushing the dust in the house on windy, sunny and really dry days. Sometimes i can smell dirt dust in here and i have to cover my nose because the air is kinda heavy to breathe. I can actually feel it starting to tickle my throat when i smell the dust air.. Not good..

So.. I
m kinda happy that we have to move, but finding an apartment is really hard.
We would've have a little breather with one apartment, but no pets allowed. so... We can't go.
It would've been cheap for a house, perfect if pets were allowed.

They should make it like this: Peoples who don't have pets, wouldn't be allowed to rent a place which allows pets. Because the houses/ apartments which are pet friendly are hard to find.
So someone who doesn't have one is stealing the opportunity from someone who really needs it.

There's plenty of apartments for those who doesn't have pets, or never will even get one... Get the apartment that has "No pets" policy. Let those who has loving furbabies to have the one that allows pets. Thank you~

so far we have our name on a waiting list for 2 places that allows pets, they have lonf waiting list tho. Today we're supposed to take papers for one place that's pet friendly, has short waiting list, altho we need to get our 3rd cat approved by the owner, and on that place it's 200 per pet, non-refundable fee. other places it's only 100. It's only once tho. From my financial aid that i get while being in dialysis I can pay for that. And every 3 months i could be able to help my husband to pay some rent and bills. since i get the aid every 3 months.

Wish us luck. We really need it. Thank you from reading.

Ok.. so.. we might need to move in a short period of time. Heard it few days ago.
This house owner sadly passed away on old age, and her kids, who unoffially rented this house for us to keep it running and taken care of so it wouldn't mold in the place it stands. we lived here from the first day of 2017.

So.. I dunno how long we have, but i started packing and throwing off stuff we haven't used or we don't need. Good to start early. so then we don't have to hurry and stress when we suddenly have only a few weeks to move. Then start sorting stuff in hurry and panic.. no good. I have a lot experience from moving, and i know it's good to start early. Safes you time and your blood pressure.

My husband still sleeps since he stay up late, playing with brothers online.

Ok. so.. I was checking some stuff we had packed in the other bedroom. I found one Bird Music box which had the "You're my sunshine" tone in. It hadn't been used in almost 2 years and i was thinking that i'll leave it here since it was here when we moved in. so i took it out from the cardboard box and place it on the shelf on top of the tv. NOT TOUCHING THE WINDING SYSTEM! Then bend down to see what else were in the box.

On that moment... My life turned into a fucking horror film!
The music box that hasn't been used in ages, started playing the song slowly.
"Ti ti..ti....ting.....ting... Ti... ti ti..... ting.... ting..."

My hairs got up, and without thinking twice, i grab it and take it outside in a trash can.

No matter how good condition it was, i'm not gonna keep that damn music box in our apartment as long as we still can stay. Good riddance!

Was bored, started playing again after a week or so hiatus from it.
Been playing the Pokemon Shield more often, because of Raid battles. I wanna have the Gigabtinax Corviknight, but guess if i have luck to actually find it myself, or get in the Raid when it's available on the list? No! I never get in, and the one time i was able to FINALLY get a spot, the host quit looking for the participants....Oh God.. i was frustrated and started hating the "Shiny Hunters" who skip the day to refresh the dens.

Sooo. Frustrated and slightly mad about it, I change the game to Lets Go Pikachu.
Beat the rest 2 remaining gyms, grind some pokemons for candies and buffed up my legendaries before going to try my luck with Elite Four.

Turns out that my Pikachu, Cream, beat up everyone exept the one for who electric didn't do shit..
Had my Charizard take care of it and continue beating them up with Cream.

Cream is now Lvl 82 abd has over 8.000 CP And her stats are over 300 each.. xD
Beat up the Elite Four and ny rival very easily, Not like the first Leaf Green that i played on my computer. Was struggling that time, since it was my first Pokemon game ever.

Anyway, beating up the Elite and Rival. I head out the Cerulean Cave to check Mewtwo.

Collected some balls and Golden Berries of the cavefloor.. Stumbled upon the right path to find Mewtwo and saved the game before getting into battle.

Beat it up with my buffed up Pikachu, took only 2 attack on Zippy Zap and Mewtwo were beaten.
Which still puzzles me how, because it's electric against Psychic.. Maybe because i was 10lvl more higher than Mewtwo.

Anyway.. Getting into the catching phase.. I decided that i'm gonna get it on different ball than MasterBall.. So.. started trowing Ultraballs on it and giving Nanab Berries..
Took at least 50 balls before i got it. In UltraBall.
I was very happy about it, and then transfer it to the Shield. Go camping and made it my friend. xD

Not as good as my Zamazenta with the normal red pokeball.. But i take it.

Atleast my Mewtwo in the Pokemon Shield is not hacked.
I did buy Mew on it tho.. It's more useful to buy one with 5 bucks than pay 50dollars for the pokeball plus..

I like to keep my game clean as possible. Just had a little weak moment to buy Mew... because it came in a bundle with Zeraora. And from some reason i just had to have the Lightning Kitty.. xD
Not to fight with, but because it's cute, and you cannot have one unless you've been in a special event.

Can you blame me? I bet there's peoples who buy shinies and max out pokemons rather than training or grinding for it.
I can say that truthfully, All Shinies i have i have been catching, or then had "luck" in the trades.
So far i had Shiny Crabloct, shiny Dracovish and shiny Alolan Vulpix trough the trades. (I do not use them for my advantage tho) It's more rewarding to raise Pokemon by yourself.

Other shinies i have either gaught or bred.

Ok... That's pretty mucg everything again. Oh yeah. So far we've been fine with my husband.

You Peeps stay safe and healthy. Keep washing/sanitazing your paws/ hands/ fins/ wings.
And remember to use lotion if your skin's getting dry.

We were talking about resident evil randomly with my husband and this came in my mind.. I haven't heard that before, but if it already exist somewhere.. Woo!

What you call small Tyrant?
-A Tyrunt

At the time like this, when you're supposed to stay home and SAFE!...

My Craft on my arm glodded up. I think it was from one nurse who stick me wrong and caused huge bruise. Because thursday it was working just fine. Friday night i noticed it didn't have a thrill in it. Saturday i already had appointment for dr. bast to open it up..
( If someone didn't know I'm dialysis patient because of a bad doctor...)

Me and my husband were only patients on there, so everything should be fine. Just a few in the lobby little later but none on the surgery floors.

Arm pains a little from the operation still, but i'll rather take the pain over the catheter on my neck.

But yep.. This is my typical luck..
when i suppose to stay home not going anywhere.
My arm glods up and I HAVE to go.. It's like my luck wants to taunt everything and say fuck you world, I'm going!

I can just hope for the best and fear the worst. I do hope everyone there were healthy since i'm one that belongs in the risk group... Everyone had their mask on tho.
Lets you have a little more secured feeling while moving around when ypu just have to.

I hope everyone else is safe too. make sure to wash those hands and if you get dry skin, moisturize them with some hand lotion while home.

Hello everybody.

I hope you guys are staying safe in your own little bunker houses with your life long supplies of toilet paper.

As it is for now, world seems to be having a lot of troubles which comes in form of a virus.

Me myself, belong in the risk group, Diabetes and dialysis due to bad doctor and her medications.
I also have some eye troubles as my right eye is completely blind now.

My husband has to work still, and I pray for him every day to stay safe.
We try to avoid unnecessary trips anywhere, Not even visiting Mother-in-law right now because from stupid reason, she still decided to go in funerals, that has relatives coming from elsewhere.
In my opinion, It's kinda.. wrong if your "face/reputation" goes over the possible danger of getting exposed.
I understand it's funerals and there's some respect that has to be paid for the deceased one.
But at time like this.. I would have some second thoughts.

Lets just hope that everything's gonna be fine. especially because she also is in the risk group with our father in law.

So. we not gonna go there for few weeks at least.

I hope everyone stays safe and under good health.
Stay strong, avoid mass hysteria and try to live as normal as possible. Just keep your hands clean. wash them often. use handsanitizer and lotion your hands. washing and handsanitizers are drying up your skin pretty fast.

Buy some Vitamins to boost your immune system.
Stay warm and cozy, sipping some hot beverages. Relaxing at home, playing board games or console.

For some this is letting them to have some long needed vacation from works. school...what ever possible is closed. But i'm also praying for those kid's, who's safe zone were schools or work.. Now that they needs to be together 24/7.

Try to be normal as possible. Avoid huge mass of peoples..
Don't sneeze or gough in the direction of others and have your commonsense with you all the times.

Stay safe everyone!

Been a bit bored alone in the house while my husband is working.

Few days ago i made experimental peach cheese cake. It was supposed to be mango, but couldn't findt the mango from the store we were in. So peach it is...
It turned out pretty good.. Even i did combine Finnish and American recipes togetherfrom there and here. I did not have ANY idea how it'll turn out. If it's gonna be a sucsess or is it gonna turn into slime and ooze over the pan and take over the whole fridge.

After 3 h of letting it sit in the fridge it turn out good. it congealed properly. Tastes more light and its more fluffier than the cheesecakes from sti=ores. Also it did not taste overly sweet at all. I'm Happy dor it to be my very first Cheesecake i ever made,

For today,, My husband show me some Jojo's Bizarre adventure anime before he goes working.
I think that's gonna be my fave from now on. It's funny and quirky in a good way. Especially the clip of Joseph and Abdulah getting stick together by that one womans "curse". Making it the gayest moment in the anime.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RNwkdDxjfGU

Also, for the most Gringiest and bizarre youtube channel i've bumped into... This morning from Markipliers gaming videos...
It holds the name: Will McDaniel
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCY.....C7SpOsrInKShvA

Not all his videos are too gringy, But that Ditto on his "Owning Pokemon in real life"
*Shudders*

And here I though the Ditto from Detective Pikachu movie were creepy. xD

Gonna eta some of that self made cheesecake and relax with this song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFE0if8aiY0

Cher is one of my fave musicians out there, I need this song on my phone!

Literally.. Haven't seen anything with my right eye ever since troubles started piling on it.

Haven't been online that much at allbecause it was hurting to read the small text with my only good eye.

Well. other than that, everything else is going just OK.
Just feeling freaking cold and having a headache. *shivering under blanket*

Been having my days pass by playing Pokemon games on our new gaming console. Switch!!
Happy that it exist! We have Pokemon Shield and Pokemon Lets Go Pikachu on it, among with some other Mario kart, Smash Brothers and.. Forgot the last one.... Anyway...

Ever since i cannot do a lot anymore, i have been wasting my days with the Shield version.
Already have all 400 pokemons collected and traded trough codes i find on internet. Had a friend trading me his Zacian back and forth for my Zamazenta

I told my husband that i'm gonna catch the Legendary in a normal Pokeball and when the time came: I did it with first try. Ask my husband. He witnessed it!
I Had Zamazenta put under the anaesthesia with Clefable's sing after i had him beaten up on low health with my other pokemons... Easy peasy. Wanna Keep it!

Also Surprise trades have been gentle on me. I have been having few shiny traded to me with MasterBall... Dunno yet if i should just send it forward. Most propably theyre hacked... So Am I lucky or unlucky when i receive Shiny, lvl 100 with best IV's and free Masterball?

Couldn't even feel that happy about them, because i don't wanna get troubles later..

I also received some new pokemons that aren't on the Galar Pokemon list, Like Rowlet, Popplio, Litten, Squirtle and bulbasaur, with alolan Vulpix.. Those I have been breeding for others to have, If i get shiny in the process, That's fine. But main reason is not Shinies, of why i breed them.

For example, Drampa is a butt to get, You need to be god dang lucky to get into Raid battle where you can encounter one.
I got Drampa trough Surprise trade and i remember my first thought was "I gotta share my luck"
Started breeding them for others. (Still waiting my Falkor to hatch out accidentally) XD

But yeah,,, When ever i get something new, that doesn't appear often in the trades, I usually breed 30 or so, and then trade them forward. Makes me happy to think that i might give some new ones for someone else.

Only exeption were Shiny Orbeeltle. Those i bred just because i wanted one. Got rid of the Blipbugs tho. Nobody wants them. Get rid of your normal Rookiedees and Magikarps.

Give only rare ones, like Mawile, feebas and such..

One more thing from Raid Battling with others:
1. I Don't care if you have shiny. If it's weak against the raid boss and it's gonna die in first turn, DON'T bring it!

2. Don't be a troll and quit looking for a raid buddies when everyone already is waiting for you to start. I had 5 cases where i was about to get in Gigantimax Centiskorch, Gigantimax Butterfree, Gigantimax Gengar and Gigantimax Corviknight, maybe possibly Shiny Charizard too, but the Host decided to quit and there goes others chances to get one.

3. If you gonna just troll peoples by slaughtering their Pokemons in a raid battle, Please don't. Some peoples actually wanna catch the Raid boss and need the candies and berries you get as a reward.

Maybe that's enough for the Game ranting. Have to go get something to eat. I'm Hungry!

No more go funding.. was able to get a little. thank you very much for the donators. You know who you are!

Still have a lot to pay, but our tax returns pretty much should cover... It is a bit shame tho. To use most of it on bills and such,,, After few months when we receive it...

Been having arm sores from the tape they uses on my arm every other day, and just recent;y i got my pneumonia shot. Arm hurts,, Still. Haven't been able to hold it up much so i cannot draw yet.

I wish we could win in a lottery, get enough to pay all my bills...

Good news tho. we have a little progress with USCIS papers finally again.

Also since my eye lasering not too long ago, my eyes have been little wonky so I apologize any typos or mistakes.
Can't keep myey es on the sceen too long.

Another Go Fund Me Campain,, Ya'll all see how horrid i look. So no need to tell me that anywhere....

Tired from allthat's happenong and i'm a bit desperate too... you can read everything in the page there,

Any help with the donations are very much appreciated. sharing, spreading the word and even 1 usd donations.. only need 900 peoples with 1 dollar donation and that's done. XD

Wish my uscis papers would gone trough earlier so i could've start working myself. but since i do not have the greencard yet, i cant get job....

https://www.gofundme.com/lazering-my-eyes
Thank you very much from ANY help.

If someone would like to donate on a good cause my paypal is: likemaniac85[at]gmail.com

Little Update from the world of mine.

Dialysis goes OK. Don't like the part where they stick the needles on my arm. Glad that i have the lidocain cream to numb the area. It get's so boring in the chair when you're hooked up in the machine for almost 4 hours.. It's so cold in there, I usually have 2 blankets to keep ,e warm and the seat heater.

If I'm lucky, I can catch a little more sleeps in there while I'm in the machine, but if not, then i watch tv or listen my MP3 player. Been watching A LOT teen titans go (love Raven) and the amazing world of Gumball... they rarely show anything else in the cartoon networks at that time when i'm there. sometimes there's a few random episodes of we bare bears and the new show called total dramallama.. but i don't like that show at all... Sometimes I'll watch animal cops and too cute from animal channel.
Very rarely there;s a movie on channel 18 that's making the time fly faster.
I think I've gotten a slight tennis elbow from the chair because my elbow bone hurts on the side where my arms lays on the armrest..

My husband have been thre to pick me up every time after. And then we usually eat either McDonalds (big Mac or FishFillet) or Chinese. I love sushi and coconut chiken. I love how the avocado sometimes tastes like banana... xD Dunno why, but in some sushi it does.

Doctor visits have been calmed down a bit. no need to run in appointments every day or every week..

Been trying to get rid of my art block by drawing a bit now and then.

Most of my time at home goes by sleeping on the days when i have dialysis. it makes me tired as hell... Some days i feel fine after and I have energy to do things.
The other days I've been hanging with my laptop and Pixelmon. xD

Got small package sent in Finland to my family..
This year I don't know what to want.. i don't actually need anything, i guess. Just having my husband there and family with dinner.
My husband already done so much for me so... I'm good. Love ya Tiggy.

Cats are doing fine. Joey is an aswipe for a cat..He's on a time out almost every friggin day from attacking the others two.
Still love him even he drives me crazy at times.

*Smacking lips*
Think that's enough for a small update.

Take care Peeps!